@saraislet Ah, that’s the problem. There’s a big difference between knowing something is true and having that truth be something you can feel. I’ve known that being productive a few hours in a day was all I could manage for a really long time. But I didn’t ever accept it, at best coming to a detente with myself of sorts that blank-stare time was work.

And then I ended up in a situation where I was told 40 hours is mandatory, and I fell apart.

@saraislet know, sure. but not accept. it tore me apart and i’m still mad at myself that i only went back to the grind part time (cue brain worm saying that time spent writing this is stolen from $employer)