It's 05 h 30.Dark.

It's 05 h 30.
Dark. Silent.
No animals. I am alone. Completely by myself.
I wish I was snuggled up to a woman, but I'm not.
Just have to put on my big boy pants and toughen up like the moron that I am I guess.
I cry easily now, in my old age.
I don't care about making a show and being 'tough' anymore.
I admit ignorance easily and ask for help to understand things like economics, compilers, kernels, biology... things I don't know anything about.
Hah! Before you know it, I'll need help cross the street for fuck's sake!
But no.
Now.
Here I am.
Typing into the void.
It's fucking cold out there. And I"m going to have to get into it. Good there's no wind. It's not minus ridiculous, so that's good.
-17º. Not a big deal. I've timed it. It only takes me ~12 minutes to walk to the bus. I wish I brought a scarf. Well. Early winter; not quite ready.
And, it makes me smile. I'm reminded that my bud, my good friend, idiot that he is, @maxheadroom goes swimming in this shit!! I so value these internet friendships. You know, one turned into a marriage almost.
So.
I do think on here. Out loud.
And 'you' whom I follow and chat with, you might be atheists - I don't care, I pray for you anyhow
In general, Catholics know. They know the measuring stick and they know where they are. And we all come up short. Not holy.
We know where we are supposed to be, but we know where we are.
Nobody is Catholic. It's just a goal.
@mpjgregoire @xmanmonk